Ever have a situation where you KNOW you could do something and do it WELL, but no matter how hard you strive and work and put your mind and effort into it.... it just doesn't come together?
That's a bit how I'm feeling at the moment. I was offered a good job last September. I was pretty excited to finally find something. Turns out the job they offered me they already gave to someone else. (What?!?... I know... *sigh*) Then I had a great job opportunity offered to me about 6 months ago. I was INSANELY excited. I put so much effort into trying to make it work. But due to issues on the other person's side... it didn't work out. So then I was all gung-ho and decided I was not giving up. I wanted to teach again and be in charge and make decisions and make a center truly AMAZING. I knew I could do it. I did my research. I knew all the in's and out's of getting started. I already had most of my supplies. I had some funding. I was ready. I even had an awesome person to be 2nd in command. But it's pretty hard to open a business if you don't have a building, right? Right. Yup. A building is a pretty major part of a work establishment. If you don't have a where, there really can't be a how, what, or who.
So basically all the work I put into all three of these adventures (most of the work in jobs 2 and 3) has pretty much been thrown out the window, into a sludge puddle in the middle of the rocky, unpaved road and ran over repeatedly by the garbage truck.
What to do, what to do...
Well, fortunately or unfortunately (not really sure at this point), giving up is not my style. I will have the job I want. It just may not be tomorrow. I'm tucking my plans away in a close place. I'll keep adding to them. And you can be sure I'll be doing the fairly regular google search for commercial spaces in the area. Little by little I'll add to my stash of supplies. I plan on gathering a few kidlets from around the neighborhood for a little preschool class from home this fall (I simply refuse to not teach this fall. Zack needs preschool, and I really need to teach.).
I've had a taste of what it feels like to be close to achieving something really incredible, and I refuse to give up that dream. Who knows why it's not meant to be right now? And I have to believe that that's the case. That it's not 'meant to be', because you better believe it certainly wasn't lack of work or effort!
But after all you can do, when things don't work out, sometimes you just have to stick with 'Plan B' for awhile. Plan A isn't gone. Just slightly delayed.
That's my girl! NEVER give up on your dreams. They may delayed or they may be slightly changed but with hard work and patience you will achieve. Remember "good things come to those who wait". We talked about our little adventure for almost 3 years, last night was our first night here and we just looked at each other and talked about how long it took us to start this new life. You can do anything you put your mind to. Keep going, I have faith that you will achieve your preschool. Maybe not now or maybe not a few months from now but you will make it. I have faith in you! :)
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